The 5th of November:


Started & Completed a household project this weekend. Cleaned, reorganized, chopped my old desk up into pieces and threw the old wood and rusty nails belonging to said desk out; in replace of new *actual* desk. I was using this self-made wooden desk before, and am now using something very official looking, clean with a nice finish for my computer, stereo, camera equipment, and books to rest atop. Quite pleased. I found so many old books, I thought I’d lost. I now have a working printer again, so no more emailing my articles and essays for school over to my folks computer to print out anymore.

Mmm, let’s see a little something different now; in the process of moving & reorganizing I found some really old photo album with all these negatives and print sheets of old photoshoots. Not to be confused with old as in a few years or months ago, but I mean from my first ever shoots. I found photos that were developed in my school photo lab, and I guess when I got my digital cameras I simply forgot about them. I have not seen these film sheets since the time they were captured. This was before I got on the computer for anything other than playing Lemmings, before I even knew what Myspace or Livejournal was, or even really used a chat program. Very Hilary Computer-Newb Era.

Well, I still haven’t hooked up my scanner so I had to take pictures of these print sheets with my digital camera and upload them all that way. As you can see these photo sheets have aged significantly, and the quality is very bad. The "film grain" effect isn’t Photoshop, that is just the process of time. They have been tossed around a lot over the years and left to deteriorate in some dusty photo album. In fact I remember why I put them all there, I was hiding them from my mom, because they were risqué for my age, and I didn’t want to get into trouble ! Haha. In one of the shoots you can see I’m wearing a ‘Marduk’ shirt before I cut it up and made it a stummy-shirt later on. . . anyway, I still have the shirt. I had really fried hair. I was always experimenting with it and bleaching it and doing all sorts of shit to my head. I was but a wee thing. Well, I am still that awkward geek. Mmm yes, one shoot is in the cemetery, as if the concept was the living end! At least I now, know better of that idea.

I warn, the quality is very bad, and I was very young. The combination, isn't exactly all that extraordinary. I didn't feel like loading all of them, but at least a few samples. In person, up close they are a little more clear, however through the process of uploading film print sheets to internet, and photobucket, when it's already aged & damaged, well you get the point...



































































Of course I had to nail like, every extreme Black Metal theme; frolicking in the forest, steel toe boots, obsession with the morbid & the dead... as well nature exploration, ah youth! Wait a minute, that's still me now >.< Oh bother, some things never change.